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i want to dive in so bad
but of course i can’t
that would simply be impractical
i edge around it
getting closer and closer
asking, wanting, begging
it to engulf me wholeheartedly
to trap me under its wing
no choice but to drown in its depth
to be given no choice
for the circumstances to present me with outcomes and consequences
rather than choose them myself
is freewill, the endless wave of choices, going to suffocate or release you?
mess up my life and leave me sopping wet with a flight to catch at midnight
leave me to deal with the mess i craved
and i really wouldn’t mind at all
wallowa lake monster
sufijan stevens
headphones ambient sound
the waves drift in one ear and out the other
far off laughter and drunk antics
islands of light adrift at sea
a majestic beast flies overhead
pirate ships hide in the shadows
waiting to be discovered and taken on an adventure
the night air perfect for company
not too cold not too warm
perfect for your company
maybe one day
but now i sit here alone
last chair on a bench
waiting to be filled